one door closes. and another opens. but its location is a secret! BWAHAHAHA!
for the url.. email me.. sheleft@hotmail.com





dreadfully tired. i tried doing my homework and i just dont get it. only like 2 problems though. maybe i'll check out the math tutoring center soon, if i dont get the hang of the stuff in section 2.2. im not too worried though. i need to work on my lib paper. its short and due friday. but ((AH!)) i dont feel like doing it. i ate entirely too much today and i feel horrid. like nasty ick. *yawn* tomorrow is my busy day. im not looking forward to it. actually, it wont be that bad.
as far as me and A...
we're broken up. like.. we talked the next day, after our discussion. and he was leaning towards yes and i decided no. so we're apart. but we still talk all the time. and ..everything is good. im happy right now. except for my gas. i have it. bad. and its all gurgly in my belly.


didnt sleep well last nite. tossed and turned a lot. then i awoke to S's alarm this morning. scared me half to death. im very tired. the reason i couldnt sleep? couldnt tell ya. could've been that i went to bed when i wasnt tired at all, or the fact that WE had a discussion last nite about our relationship and how... we're not in one right now? we broke up and i thought we were back together, or so i thought. i guess we werent. but .. it seemed like it. then things happened the other nite that shouldnt have and that we both regret. so.. anyway. we talked last nite. and he has some things to sort out. he doesnt know whether he wants to be with me or not. and.. i want to be with him. i think. maybe i dont. maybe its better to not be together. AH! i dont know. its hard. i love him to death. but.. then i dont know. should we be together? half of me says "yes! of course!" and the other half says "hey NO WAY. dont be stupid." this isnt the first breakup. no sir. twice before. thats 3 breakups. thats not good. and the way our relationship is isnt good. constant fighting. but the past week has been good. but.. i dont know. E says no way, no getting back together. i dont know what i want or what to do. im just waiting on him i guess.
in other news..
i dont have much $ in my checking account and i have ZERO cash on me, and i have to go buy a book today for my lib class that came in that wasnt in when i got my other books. i also need to find some way to pay for my coldplay ticket.
im getting a shower now. (i was too lazy last nite to get one.) ((ew.))


back at school. woopie doopie doo. i've still got so much to do. like.. unpacking. more like putting away/finding room for. im dreadfully tired. slept at A's house last nite. more like tried to sleep. cant sleep when there's snoring and one of the other room mates coming in at 4am from work and being really LOUD.
i have class at 4. OH! S and i have the same geo lecture! HA! its cool! sadly we dont have the same lab. now THAT would rock.
my math class is in the same room as my math class last semester... hmmmm. i guess thats good.
3 classes tomorrow. yikes. i think i may go look for my classes later. maybe.
gosh im tired. for the past 4 days i havent gotten hardly any sleep.
im gonna finish putting stuff away, then i'd like to hook up my webcam and mouse.. and.. cd burner.. and maybe my printer. whew. i've got lots to do.


well hello!!! im back at home (obviously) and have had ZERO computer access. except for now, and when E let me use her comp that one day.
jackass SUCKED ASS. we left early. it was dumb. and .. just horrible. hugest waste of money.
brother had to have ANOTHER surgery on the day he was supposed to go home. they had to do it again because the screws came loose. so he was in the hospital for c-mas today. he'll be out in a couple of days. then we'll open our presents with mom. my brother didnt wanna do it in the hospital so im waiting to do mine too. dad and i took all of the presents up and we opened presents from dad at the hospital. it was cool. got many fun things.
work is going well. got a raise! :D
shouldve worked yesterday but i suck and didnt go in. i should work tomorrow too.. but .. yea. i dont know. maybe.
im really full. i just ate some meatballs and then had some pecan pie. STUFFED. i wasnt even that hungry to begin with. mom made pecan pie for the first time, and nailed it. its sooooo good.
IT SNOWED 8 INCHES LAST NITE. we had zero snow, then WHAM! we got 8 inches dumped on us last nite. insane. was really fun driving today. sha. not.
saw A today for the first time in 2 weeks. he came to the hospital and visited me (and my brother too!) he was sad to leave. it was so sweet.
im gonna go to the bathroom and get ready to leave. moms getting ready for bed.
gosh im stuffed. *barf*
Merry Christmas!!


going to see JACKASS!! LIVE! tonite!! then going back home for c-mas. brother is having back surgery monday morning. i should be starting work on tue or wed. .. or thurs. but sometime that week i'll be working back at the 'ole job.
i've got so much stuff packed. clothes mostly. cant wear jeans at work. cleaning all day. not fun.
anyway!! BYE!


9 minutes and counting..

its almost time for ER!!!!!
so.. instead of sunday, im going back on saturday. which is.. ((ultra cool)).


do wop do wop
ok, so i had a B+ in my math class. had. after getting a whopping 68% on the final, my grade is a C+.
i got an effin C+.
SO not happy.
not one bit.
la la la


Procrastination is like masturbation. They're both fun until you realize you're just fucking yourself.
stick THAT in your back pocket.


the sun the sun! oh how i've missed thee!!!
Lizardrose123: i think i just broke my adventure
facetothesky: ?
Lizardrose123: LOL!!!!!!!!
Lizardrose123: i meant ankle
Lizardrose123: L O L
Lizardrose123: i was listening to the tv
'is he breathing?'
'hell no. but he's hung like a stallion.'


S has SO much work and a huge paper to do.. rather than an exam in one of her classes.. and i dont have much at all.
i feel bad..
and i dont. ;D


i got him the BEST christmas present ever!!
ok, maybe not the best ever, .. but that boy is going to SHIT HIS PANTS when he opens it. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! i cant wait!!!!


so, i have a date tomorrow nite. a movie date with one A. i do believe we will be enjoying 'the shining'.
cripes im tired.
i think im gonna get a shower now.
ER tonite!!!
due to the fact that you had to have a drivers license or a passport, and the fact that i had a class immediately following, i have to wait until tomorrow and walk my happy butt cleeeeeeeeeear over to student services and THEN get the results of my test.
i honestly dont know how i did. if i passed it'll be just barely i think. yes. so im hungry. im gonna find something to eat.


im done im done im done!!!!

now to stress about other things..