1.18.2003

one door closes. and another opens. but its location is a secret! BWAHAHAHA!
for the url.. email me.. sheleft@hotmail.com

1.17.2003

woodchuck


LMAO

1.15.2003

dreadfully tired. i tried doing my homework and i just dont get it. only like 2 problems though. maybe i'll check out the math tutoring center soon, if i dont get the hang of the stuff in section 2.2. im not too worried though. i need to work on my lib paper. its short and due friday. but ((AH!)) i dont feel like doing it. i ate entirely too much today and i feel horrid. like nasty ick. *yawn* tomorrow is my busy day. im not looking forward to it. actually, it wont be that bad.
as far as me and A...
we're broken up. like.. we talked the next day, after our discussion. and he was leaning towards yes and i decided no. so we're apart. but we still talk all the time. and ..everything is good. im happy right now. except for my gas. i have it. bad. and its all gurgly in my belly.

1.13.2003

didnt sleep well last nite. tossed and turned a lot. then i awoke to S's alarm this morning. scared me half to death. im very tired. the reason i couldnt sleep? couldnt tell ya. could've been that i went to bed when i wasnt tired at all, or the fact that WE had a discussion last nite about our relationship and how... we're not in one right now? we broke up and i thought we were back together, or so i thought. i guess we werent. but .. it seemed like it. then things happened the other nite that shouldnt have and that we both regret. so.. anyway. we talked last nite. and he has some things to sort out. he doesnt know whether he wants to be with me or not. and.. i want to be with him. i think. maybe i dont. maybe its better to not be together. AH! i dont know. its hard. i love him to death. but.. then i dont know. should we be together? half of me says "yes! of course!" and the other half says "hey NO WAY. dont be stupid." this isnt the first breakup. no sir. twice before. thats 3 breakups. thats not good. and the way our relationship is isnt good. constant fighting. but the past week has been good. but.. i dont know. E says no way, no getting back together. i dont know what i want or what to do. im just waiting on him i guess.
in other news..
i dont have much $ in my checking account and i have ZERO cash on me, and i have to go buy a book today for my lib class that came in that wasnt in when i got my other books. i also need to find some way to pay for my coldplay ticket.
im getting a shower now. (i was too lazy last nite to get one.) ((ew.))

1.06.2003

back at school. woopie doopie doo. i've still got so much to do. like.. unpacking. more like putting away/finding room for. im dreadfully tired. slept at A's house last nite. more like tried to sleep. cant sleep when there's snoring and one of the other room mates coming in at 4am from work and being really LOUD.
i have class at 4. OH! S and i have the same geo lecture! HA! its cool! sadly we dont have the same lab. now THAT would rock.
my math class is in the same room as my math class last semester... hmmmm. i guess thats good.
3 classes tomorrow. yikes. i think i may go look for my classes later. maybe.
gosh im tired. for the past 4 days i havent gotten hardly any sleep.
im gonna finish putting stuff away, then i'd like to hook up my webcam and mouse.. and.. cd burner.. and maybe my printer. whew. i've got lots to do.